well my baby left for army. i got to spend his last day yesturday with him at his moms house it was really nice.we missed eachother so much since its been like 5 days.we watched Unleashed,cuddled a lot we were like glue,he showd me some old pics of him an his family an we watched his graduation tape.then his mom came come an we had to leave, we took some final pictures an we were off to drop me off at the mall.we arived at the mall an had to say out final goodbye face to face, i huged him an didnt want to let go,i haded started crying yet but then he looked at me an said i love u then asked if i was gonna be ok,then the tears just dripped.i said love u to an i wish u luck an ill see u in dec. let go of his hand an walkd away behind the car an into the doors. it felt like a movie like it all wasnt real.i wasnt going to see the person i love the most for a few months. i turnd around to wave goodbye but they had gone. i wiped my eyes an walked around the mall to get my mind off him.i baught a cell phone face thingy an a blinkie antena.the guy gave me a deal cuz i toldhim what just happend with me an justin so i took the deal. then my mom pickd me up an hour later an we went to cromwell to vist some people then came home.felt like shit rest of the night.friends tried to get me to come out but i just wanted to be alone.justin called me from his hotel,very surprizing.it really seems like he doesnt want to saygoodbye,its like were drowning it out.so we talkd for a while he was sooo neriouse an scared an tired but didnt want to get off the phone with me. hes real homesick an i wish i could have done something to make him feel better but i cant.so we said goodbye again an i broke down as i said goodbye an hung up.THEN this morning i get a call from him at the airport,realyl hard to keep saying goodbye,he says hel call me back again at the next airport.

tonight me an mom are going to my uncals house where my grama is dog siting an im goin in the hottub an playin with the dog.its hard to not think about someone 247 when they been with u for 11 months an lived with u for 9 months.hes everywhere around here,an whenever i play out song on the computer i start crying.

anyways im off not enough sadness off to eat or something